"Since when do you have a blog, again?"

"You mean you don't remember?"

"You need to be reminded then. Get ready for a whole world of pain."

"Well, you know...that."

"What?"

"You're bad at learning. It's not like you aren't smart, you're just bad at learning. You understand things differently than other people, and you do it slower than they do. The only reason that you're not in the "special" area is because you can draw on your past experience more easily and better. I mean...you act more instinctively, and you seem to just do without knowing. I'm bad at explaining; come on." *blush*

"I get what you're saying, but really it just depends on the day, and you are bad at explaining."

"Yeah, yeah I am."

"How so?"

"Well for one thing, you have this blog that is basically a reflection of your train of thought. It's like you can't focus."

"Butterfly."

"See what I mean."

"I did that as a joke and you know it."

"Do I?"

Everyday I find that there are so many things in life that I'm thankful for. I'm thankful for being alive, I'm thankful for my good fortune, for my family, for my good health, for my friends, for all the people around me. I'm thankful for being born as a human, for having no terrible disabilities aside from my poor vision. I'm grateful for all the beautiful things in the world, the flowers, the food, the fools, the art, the geniuses, the music, and the many books free for me to read. I'm grateful for what I have, what I once had, for what I might get in the future, but most of all I'm thankful for the you. For meeting you. I'm thankful for meeting every single person in my life, I guarantee that I wouldn't be who I am today had I not met a single one of those people. I am grateful for every one on this earth, however I could throw that all away, just for you. You are my light.

"Have you ever realized that you're bad at starting conversations?"

"Yes, yes I have."

"Doesn't it get really awkward when you want to talk to someone, but you have nothing to say, so you just start the conversation, and then end up wasting the other person's time. Then while you're thinking about what to say; they walk away, or they think that you don't want to talk to them, and somewhere in their minds they think that maybe you don't like them. Is that what happens to you when you're talking to your crush?"

"Yes, yes it is."

"This is completely unrelated, but do you like pie?"

"Why would you ask that?"

"I-i-i-i-i-i just happen to have some."

"Why?"

"I brought it from home."

This is just entirely random, and doesn't even make sense to me.

"You just wear your feelings on your sleeve don't you?"

"No I don't. I wear them on my face" *motions in front of face*

"No, you wear them on your sleeve."

"Really? How can you tell?"

"It's easy, you just have to look."


You can learn really cool things from all the people around you. I'm sorry that I don't really say anything worth reading, but this is really just for kicks. 

Maybe I should try writing a fan fiction......

"IIIII'mmmm Tiiiiirrred!"

"A thing that I often say at school."

"Yeah, I knew that already, you don't need to exp/"

"I say it all the time because that's how I feel. I wear my feelings on my sleeve that makes it really obvious when I don't like someone."

"Yes, yes it does."

"Did you know, I'm afraid of the dark?"

"Does is matter?"

"Not really I guess..."

When someone is having a bad day, that's a day you should just leave them alone.

                       That is all

"Are you alright?"

"Yeah, I'm fine, why?"

"It's just that not enough people ask. Are you sure you're alright?"

You should be able to tell when I'm alright or not, my emotion stays right there on my face, but there are people who you really can't tell if they're okay or not, since they hide their pain so well.

"For me the world is finally changing."

"What do you mean?"

"Things are finally getting tough. I thought I wanted to get on a higher level, but this isn't what I wanted, nothing like it."

My friend is moving away and I won't be able to see him that often anymore, probably never. My family, my siblings and I are finally splitting up after all these years, we've been together, but now we're going our separate ways.

Except I stay where I am.

"How do you start a conversation without interrupting someone else?"

"You wait until their finished their conversation."

"But what if you really need to talk to them, like right then?"

"I'm not sure."

"And then I get really embarrassed when I had something to say, but I don't know if I should say it anymore."

"Life is tough."

"No it isn't, the fact that you're shoving that in my face is tough."

"Don't change the subject!"

Life is only hard if you make it hard, something that I always forget. Then I don't really know what to do about the conversation/interruption problem, but you always need to just slow down. Be calm, you've got time.

WWWAAATTTEEERRR MMMAAARRRKKK!!!

"I feel like I woke up too early, and I also don't have anything to do."

"Good for you. I don't care."

"You don't have to, I was actually just trying to start a conversation."

"Oh."

Oh. That's what people are doing when they say random things to me! I get it now.
*face palm*

"Do you ever think about something that you don't know anything about, and then just feel dumb?"

"All the time."

"Hmm... that makes sense."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"Nothing."

This conversation with one of my friends, is pretty old, there was a recording of it on one of my old camera memory sticks, it was just like "Hey! I remember this." when I found it.

Which made me think of something else. Don't you hate it when people start you up on a topic and then don't finish what they were saying. 

"I don't even care, I have things to post."

The world is stupid, someone should write a book about how stupid it really is, but I guess they wouldn't be able to because the world is just that stupid.

It sees itself as a great power, something that has the right to judge others in an unfair way without waiting patiently to understand what exactly they have to say.

It sees itself as something too low to deserve to live and simply dies.

It sees itself as ugly and sickening. So it fixes itself using unnatural means. Doing things that just don't make sense.

We the world see ourselves as separate entities, and treat each other so badly without understanding what exactly we did wrong. We poison each other, we steal, we discriminate, we destroy, we are truly stupid.

Listening to myself, I guess we're actually pretty mislead. It isn't fair for me to judge the world based on what I see, what I know is so small in the grand scheme of things. 

My opinion is insignificant, isn't it?

"Wait. Does anyone even read your blog?"

"Who knows? See if I care." *tears up* "Shut up."

"I didn't say anything."

This is smaller than I thought.

"Nothing's gonna change if you don't do anything about it."

"Since when did you get all smart?"

"Since now."


Has anyone ever just said that to you? Just going on being smart, saying exactly what you needed to hear, or maybe they didn't say anything comforting at all, maybe them just simply being there comforted your very soul.

"Okay."

It's been a while since school has started. I don't really have anything to say except that. My opinion on people has changed so drastically over the summer, and I think other people's opinions about me have changed a lot too. It makes things difficult to settle into again. That's what summer will do to you.

On a completely different note, I have a friend named Summer, and I really hate the summer. So whenever I say that summer's so hot, or that I hate summer, I have to say that it's the season, not the person. Makes you think about all those people who have and actually thing for a name.

At school, the teachers are the coolest people around, they have to try to teach new concepts to the students, while also trying to make them behave. If everyone just followed the rules, then the schools would work much more efficiently. 

"Then figure it out."

"How do I do that though?!? It's like everything I do is wrong. Everything that I plan doesn't happen! I make promises that I can't keep! I don't understand."

"Calm Down."

"I don't know what to do, from here on."

My life has decided that it wants to be stupid. It's like "I'm going to be all confusing just to annoy the hell out of everyone." 

I didn't know what school I was supposed to got to tomorrow, it was like:

•  "Is the school done being built? 
• Why did the old school call? 
• Did the new school call?
•  Am I going to miss the first day of school? 
• This is all so stupid. I don't understand. 

         Since when did life get so difficult?

"I don't find this amusing, why did you post it?"

"Because I don't know what to do, and I was hoping for some feedback from someone who was somewhat smart."

I'm falling through the abyss that is reality. 

"Wait! Isn't school starting soon?"

"I was waiting for to notice."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"You never asked."

I hate it when people say this kind of thing! It's like, why didn't you take the initiative? I also hate it when they say, things that I don't understand, or when they talk about something I don't want to listen to, but I can't just say that to their faces, can I?

It's so Creepy...

*face palm* "I think I'm going to talk to someone else now."

"Why hello there? What brings you here?"

"Oh you know, just the usual."

"Dude, cut the crap, what's going on?"

"You really are psychic."

"Don't I know it!"

Do you ever get the feeling that your friends are psychic? They can be really amazing sometimes, and it really helps to have someone to talk to when there's something weighing on your mind. Or you could go on the internet and express your thoughts in the most random way you can think of in 10 seconds.

"I think you just realized that you have no life."

" I think this is the first time, that we agree. You're right, you don't have a life."

"That's not how that word works, when I say you, that's you." *points*

"Yeah! It means you."

"Well, to be honest, I don't really know what I'm doing here."

"Someday you will know, just go on a long soul searching journey, I'm sure the answer will show up some time in some religious way."

"You know when you say those words, in that voice, you sound stupid."

"I know, I know..."

Well it goes to show, that no matter what you're saying, it all depends on your body language and tone of voice. For example:

"Funny seeing you here, I had no idea you'd be here at all, OH HOHOHOHOHO!"

This was a bad idea to do this on a website, in words, on a page.

"I doubt anyone does."

"It would be weirder if they did." 

"You know what else is weird?"

Like everything, but that's beside the point, it the fact that every human being is basically a hypocrite. Even when you really try not to, it happens no matter what. It's like everything that you say just comes back to haunt you at a later date.

My best friend and, get along so well, we know what each other want before we know what we want! It's fun that way, but you realize, that the only good way to get over the stupid wall that embodies hypocrites and get to the point of telepathy, is through mutual understanding.

*READ THIS WHOLE THING WITH A BRITISH ACCENT*

"I don't really know what to say to that."

"Yup. I'm pretty sure that like 70% of the people who say that are either old or me."

"I guess that sums it up pretty well."

I think I have the weirdest conversations, wait, no. I take that back. Weird conversations just kind of happen. All the time. They're weird like that.



Weird...

"Why's that chum?"

"What's with that? What's next? Are you going to ask me: Why so glum? With all that rhyme y goodness? Well that's just great. Everything is just great."

No it isn't. Getting angry and frustrated is very common for me as of late. Just yesterday, it seemed like the whole world was against me, today I remember that the world's too stupid to team up against just one person. My life has decided that it wants to fall apart, and all of this must sound really annoying.

"If you say it is, I...won't believe you."

"That's nice, seeing as I didn't say that the whole world is boring, I only suggested it."

"If you think of it that way, isn't the whole world boring?"

"That's not what I meant...I mean, wouldn't you feel hurt if nobody even read your blog?"

"Why would I? In the first place, it was just for fun."

"That's good then."

This is a conversation I had with a friend of mine, he's really nice, and he cares for others more than he does himself. It would be good if there were more people like him.

"Well, your posts are really boring."

You don't say? Well writing a blog should be difficult for someone as boring as myself, wouldn't it? It's like I always say:

"If you don't have a better idea, shut up."

Yes this picture makes sense.

"Hmm...I don't know."

Do you ever get those moments where you say something really amazing, and you think

"Oh, I should really make a blog."

Well...I get that a lot, but only a little less than that I feel like I'd forgotten what I was going to post in the first place.

That just really sucks...

"Since when do you have a blog?"

Why does everyone keep asking me that? It's not as though this is really weird at all. We probably all saw this coming form the start, like in bad movies that you get to see the ending as soon as you introduce the main character. I'm that main character, of this blog anyway.